【陽のあたる坂道】

[Nov. 22nd, 2009|02:56 am]

[

Am feeling

cold

]

(Michael Phelps's butterfly. LOVESSSS)

The weather nowadays makes me feeeeel so lazy, I wanna coil up in my bed and not go anyway.

Damn, I miss swimming. I miss the feeling in the pool. I miss swimming all my might to beat my own timing and to complete the laps I set for myself. I want a new swimsuit. I want the Speedo FS Pro series one... But that's like so difficult to wear, might rip it any moment if I'm not careful.

Goddamn! I want my own swimming pool. I want a coach to teach me to do flips and turns, and butterfly!~

I love swimming. It makes me forget my problems because I only concentrate on finishing my laps, and pushing myself to be faster. YESSAHHHHH!!!!~

[Nov. 11th, 2009|11:33 pm]

[	Am feeling	\|	frustrated	]
[	Listening to	\|	If You're Gone by Matchbox Twenty	]

No, I don't like this at all. I thought it would be fun for us to decide what we gonna do and stuff. But it seems like I'm the only one interested in doing the itinerary.

I don't like to keep asking people the same things over and over again.

Or should I just go ahead instead.

DAMN.

[Nov. 7th, 2009|09:58 pm]

[	Am feeling	\|	cheerful	]
[	Listening to	\|	Splender - I Think God Can Explain	]

Sunday = Family Day

YAY! Tomorrow's a Sunday. And Sunday is reserved for family, which means it's family day! I'm glad I have a great family. But I'm not seeing mum for the next whole week. She will be in Malaysia attending to the shop. Man, I don't wanna eat food bought from outside, so sick already. I want to eat my mum's cooking. My dad have not prepared any meals for a week or so already. I want to taste my dad's cooking too.

Ok, anyway, I'm bringing my sis and bro to Chinatown tomorrow for breakfast. Sort of. I hope the dim sum eating house will be open by then. I really wanna let them taste the BEST dim sum I've discovered in Singapore. Woooohoooo! Wanted to bring mum and dad along, but they aren't in Singapore. Shall bring them when they are free.

And yes, my attachment is gonna end soon. Pretty fast time flies. I'm left with about 2 weeks+. YAY YAY! Ending on the eve of Hari Raya. YAYNESS! Can't wait to graduate, find a job and save money, and in 2 3 years' time migrate to Korea. I know 2 3 years seem a little short to save up, but I can get a job in Korea too. HAHA. DAMN. I wanna get the high rise apartment in Seoul. Practically need lotsa money to buy, or even to rent it. The rental is like a few thousand SING dollars. How am I gonna afford it. DAMN. BUT I REALLY WANT IT!!!

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[Oct. 30th, 2009|11:39 pm]

[	Am feeling	\|	chipper	]
[	Listening to	\|	Daniel Merriweather's Red	]

And I can't do this by myself;
All of these problems, they're all in your head.

And I can't be somebody else,
You took something perfect,
And painted it red.

This song is constantly playing in my mind...

[Oct. 15th, 2009|10:09 am]

[

Am feeling

lonely

]

So what if you have sooooooooooo many friends in facebook, so many people that you know, but none is mutual? How pathetic right.

I seriously wish I can meet other people who is like me. I wish there is just another 3 of me whom I can be friends with, so that I would not be lonely and left out. Have of the same interests and we understand each other, and I do not need to express my emotions and you know how I feel.

Friends who would come immediately after a call, whether is it for leisure or helping out.

I want someone who understands me emotionally. Gosh, sometimes I feel that being alone without friends is much better than to have friends.

[Oct. 11th, 2009|07:00 pm]

[

Am feeling

aggravated

]

BUAY STEADY ONE.

I CAN FINALLY ENJOY MY DAY WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT MY WORK BUT I CAN'T ENJOY WHEN EVERYONE KEEP REJECTING ME.

I AM SO SICK OF REJECTIONS ALREADY. WHY EVERYTHING I DO IS NOT RIGHT, ALWAYS GET REJECTED AND NEVER BEEN ACCEPTED BEFORE?

THINGS I DO NOT APPRECIATED. I feel so SIAN ABOUT THIS.

WHY CAN'T I MEET 3 FRIENDS JUST LIKE ME.

I WANT FRIENDS THAT ONE CALL AND WILL COME. WITHOUT HESISTATION!

BETTER STILL THAT I CAN HAVE A BOYFRIEND THAT ALSO LIKES THE THINGS I LIKE (TO DO AND STUFF). BETTER KNOW HOW TO PLAY MAHJONG.

KNS. I WANT 3 MJ KAKIS ALSO SO HARD TO FIND. THE WORLD IS SO POPULATED I CAN'T EVEN FIND 1 TO START.

BLOODY HELL.

I AM VERY PISSED OFF WITH EVERY SINGLE THINGS IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.

[Oct. 9th, 2009|11:15 pm]

[

Am feeling

stressed

]

I'm so sleepy now. Turning off after this.

I never get to sleep enough since the start of SIP. So dead. No live. Do shitty jobs and earn pathetic amount of money. This week is even worse. Been busy since Monday. Boss sent Mag and me to the branches ISLANDWIDE. Went from Bishan to Plaza Sing to Tiong Bahru yesterday. Today, went to Bugis to Jurong East to Boon Lay to Woodlands. And I start work at 10.30am and ended at 9pm. Wayyyyy exceeded my usual working hours. When I see how messy the things were, my head cracked. Vomit blood until I faint.

I was sooooo pissed off with the course card thingy that I teared, at the last branch today. Mag had already finished hers and went home. Called Dad to pick me up and mum said Dad is also tired and threw her tantrum. In the end they still came all the way to Woodlands and fetch me, waited for 30 minutes. LOL. The CSO came and worriedly ask me what happened. I replied that I was just too tired. You know I haven't had my dinner yet, and I have been trying to minimize as many errors as possible for every branch I go. I am a perfectionist so when I don't get the perfect answer, I'm just so angry. But time constrain was the problem. I had to rush so many branches everyday that I couldn't do my job properly. Even though 4,5 branches a day seemed little, but it's really draining my energy away, thinking of where the figures came from and stuff. Must tally must tally. Transportation wise also took up my time. Having lunch also consumed time.

Gosh. I just want to do some SPA or MASSAGE to relax. I need it so badly....

[Oct. 8th, 2009|12:21 am]

[	Am feeling	\|	calm	]
[	Listening to	\|	Splender - I Think God Can Explain	]

Splender - I Think God Can Explain
There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things
That I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
To look me in the eyes

It's alright, I'm okay
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm okay
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it, yeah
Yeah...

The scent of vaseline
In the summer time
The feel of an ice cube
Melting overtime
Well, the world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small
When I begin to cry

It's alright, I'm okay
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm okay
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it, yeah

I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed
Yeah...

It's alright, I'm okay
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm okay
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over your back...

I think God can explain
I think God can explain
I think God can explain
Yeah...

I heard this song before when I was younger. Was in the office yesterday and Class 95 played this song. Sounded familiar. Love it to the MAX. I wanna listen to more songs like this. So hard to find this type of songs nowadays. Anybody got recommendations?

[Oct. 5th, 2009|11:19 pm]

[	Am feeling	\|	drained	]
[	Listening to	\|	Mind is playing - 方大同 : Sorry	]

Nothing exciting happened. Beside getting my first pay for attachment. Spent on it getting a new phone. Like finally I can pamper myself. With a new gadget. Have been getting normal phone for years. Time to experience a smart phone.

TA-DA!

I'm still not sleeping enough. I WANT MY BEDDDD~~~

[Oct. 1st, 2009|12:28 am]

[

Am feeling

gloomy

]

I just find some people, I am unable to communicate comfortably with.

And I'm sleep deprived.