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[Jan. 31st, 2011|10:53 pm] |
| [ | Am feeling |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Celine Dion - That's The Way It Is | ] |
Woah, been a long time since I last wrote an entry. Life has been good so far. Work is busy; I've made a great friend/colleague at work. We have so much similarities I think we're just twins borned 2 years and 4 minutes apart. LOL. Seriously, there's just too many common things that we share. The first and one of the awesome person I've met in 2011!
I guess I'll just leave this place abandon for a while. Maybe age got me to not so write so frequent, I don't have the passion to blog about it anymore. Hahaha! Till then everyone, have a great 2011 and Lunar New Year. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2010|12:26 am] |
| [ | Am feeling |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Lady Antebellum - Need You Now | ] |
This is getting too overwhelming; I wonder how long I can be sane. Maybe when it has reached the maximum craziness, it will or may be a total wipe out of the feeling.
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you;
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay.
And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind;
For me it happens all the time!!!! |
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[Sep. 29th, 2010|12:07 am] |
| [ | Am feeling |
| |  drunk | ] |
The one(s) that make your heart pound.
I bet everyone has that feeling. Adrenaline rush, pupils constricted. That's when you're nervous. I always have that feeling. I don't quite like it.
I stare at the list of contacts, and stop upon them. It's all scripted in my brain, but saying it out is another matter.
God, it's really driving me crazy. Move on you said. Easier said than done. Try to understand my situation. I don't know what I need. Is it time or courage or distraction?
O, someone mighty to enlighten me.
Play me some indie music, get me some Erdinger. Make me feel high. Let me forget my troubles.
Let me indulge in some peace and tranquility in my heart and soul.
Then I'll be all ready to go. |
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[Sep. 25th, 2010|10:24 pm] |
| [ | Am feeling |
| |  contemplative | ] |
I don't see how it's possible. I really don't. Until I sort it out, or unless a miracle happens, till that day, maybe I'll just drown myself in alcohol. That's why I really need lotsa Erdinger. Or vodka shots. Alcohol intoxification for the time being. Really, people. Anyways, I thank the people who sort of encourage me to do it. Not that I don't wanna try but somehow I feel that it will be unsuccessful, and I don't want to experience it again. Not that it was bad the first time, but I don't like the way things turn out NOT to be what you have expected.
That's why I never make any plans in my life. Because things don't always go according to plans. Giving it a try is one thing, the result is another. Yes, it is absolutely true, but since you have planned it, you would certainly wish for the best result right.
So I'll just let nature takes it course.
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[Sep. 15th, 2010|02:13 am] |
Oh god. When it has just started to settle, some thing has stirred it up again. Oh my god.
Can't I have the best of both worlds? It would be totally perfect if I have a little of you and a little of you together, that's the best. The most ideal one.
Oh god.
Even the back view is just soooooooooooo attractive I can't take my eyes off again. LOLOLOL!!!! |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2010|02:44 am] |
| [ | Am feeling |
| | happy | ] |
I just wanna say that it was great knowing you, even though I have not seen you in real life. I hope to see you one day. Sometimes you really make my day, make me forget about a day's work and troubles, when I'm talking to you. And most importantly, I personally think that we have similar characters or personalities or thinking, you know like they say "great mind thinks alike". Hahaha!
That's why I like talking to you! Although we don't talk every single day, but I enjoyed the "companionship". Even though sometimes you are online, but playing game. Hahaha!
That's all I wanna say.
Oh, one more thing. Just accept that you're quite good-looking. In my eyes. ;)
I'm going off to bed. ;D
edit: I couldn't resist talking to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!! I know I am bothersome to all the guys I talked to, 'cause they'll think like "oh no, not HER again". But but but, I really enjoy talking nonsense with you people!!! :P
Sometimes, I see your name, but I don't know what to say to you. |
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[Aug. 14th, 2010|02:54 pm] |
| [ | Am feeling |
| | quixotic | ] |
Offensive to the sense of beauty
I've got nothing to do, so here I am writing my thoughts. It's scripted, I know what I am gonna write about.
I am a very superficial person, really. Even when someone is a friend of my friend or some random strangers or a new co-worker, whoever looks ugly ( yes I'm a very straightforward person), I will have the tendency not to have any contact with the person. Not saying that I'm VERY pretty that people will look at me like a celebrity. But I think I am better looking than some people. Not trying to boast here.
Whatever it is, to me, ugly means fat and not pretty. Fat. Really fat. I don't see how fat people can be pretty. And yes, I don't really like fat people (like myself yes I am fat o.o a bit of irony here). Like really fat that they can take up two seats and block the whole walkway. And yes this is a discrimination of FAT AND UGLY people.
Let me give a pictorial example.
This is call FAT and obese people roaming on the streets.
That's one.
Ugly people. If I give a list of what ugly (not pretty) people means to me I would offend too many humans.
The reason that I write about this is: WHY EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE FAT AND UGLY, they still have got partners. Whereas I think I'm better than them, I don't have one.
So yes here I am self-pitying. Oh maybe because there ain't many guys around that are my "expectation" so I don't have one right. And yes I don't like fat and ugly guys. And yes I'm superficial. I'm straightforward and I behave like a guy.
But I am happy the way I am (not physically). Dhatch told me he just haven't found me yet. HAHAHAHA. That's comforting but still it's a fact that no guys like me uh, Dhatch babe. XD
I think I'm writing nonsense here.
All in all, it's just one way. |
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[Aug. 12th, 2010|10:38 pm] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | I Never Told You - Colbie Caillat | ] |
I can buy all the things I want, but there's just this thing I can never buy with money.
I always wanted it but I can never get hold of it. So I can only dream of having it. And dreaming (fantasizing) about it makes me go nuts.
Practically.
Why can't I have it.
The anticipation and motivation has gone since then.
It's emptied. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2010|10:31 pm] |
| [ | Am feeling |
| |  enthralled | ] |
Oh god, I just can't take my eyes off your new colored hair!
I'm so damn attracted to your hair, even before you dyed it. And now, the color makes you look even betterrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Oh my goddddddddddd!!! |
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[Jul. 5th, 2010|10:04 pm] |
Why does my heart beats so fast and hard like a roaring thunder and a flashing lightning when I get to see you by chance omfg. Everytime it happens I wish I was dead so that it stops beating like mad. I don't wanna have this kind of feeling & I don't like it goddamnit. :( Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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